my stalker Roderick Garrett

MICHAEL BOHANNON AND I HAVE BEEN HAPPILY MARRIED FOR 19 YEARS THIS COMMING JANUARY.

RODERICK HAD TRIED SEVERAL TIMES TO KILL ME IN THE PAST YEARS, THE LAST ONE DURING THE TIME OF OUR DIVORCE. HE EVEN HAD TOLD CO-WORKERS HORRIBLE LIES ABOUT ME BEING A SEX MANIAC, WHO HELPED HIM TO HARRASS AND STALK ME. THESE SAME PEOPLE WERE READY AND WILLING TO SUPPLY HIM WITH AN ALIBY ON THE DAY HE HAD PLANNED MY MURDER.

I MUST SAY MY PSYCHOLOGIST HAD TOLD ME OVER AND OVER THAT HE WOULD DO ME IN. AFTER A DAY IN COURT WHEN RODERICK LOST IT AND SHOWED HIS TRUE COLOR’S, THEY HAD THE BALLIF CHECK HIS BRIEFCASE FOR A WEAPON. ALL THE WAY OUT OF THE COURT AND FOUR BLOCKS TO OUR CAR’S MY LAWYER KEPT SAYING, “IF HE COMES NEAR YOU SCREAM, GET AWAY FROM HIM. HE WILL KILL YOU. OVER AND OVER AGAIN. THE ENTIRE WALK TO OUR CAR’S. HOW DOES ONE PROTECT AGAINST ONE WHO WOULD GO TO ANY LENGTHS TO KILL YOU? I DO NOT KNOW.

THIS TIME HE HAD COME DOWN  TO BAKERSFIELD AND WAS BUILDING HIMSELF TO A CLIMAX TO DO THE DIRTY DEED. AS HE WAS IN OUR HOME WITH ME, HE WAS TELLING ME ONE OF HIS MADE UP STORIES ABOUT ME. HE WAS RANTING AND RAVING AND I WAS TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM HIM. THE PHONE RANG AND I ANSWERED IT. MARK OUR SON WAS ON THE PHONE. HE HAD FELT A URGENT NEED TO CALL ME. AT THE TIME I WAS CRYING AND UPSET.

I TOLD MARK THE THINGS RODERICK WAS SAYING TO ME. I FINISHED BY SAYING, “WHY IS HE DOING THIS? MY LOGICAL, ENGINEER SAID, “BECAUSE HE IS A CRUEL MAN AND HE LIKES TO HURT PEOPLE”. THEN HE SAID, “MOM CALL ME WHEN DAD LEAVES’ Roderick took the phone and the man who had been a raving manic moments before,  spoke to MARK AND TOLD HIM WE WERE OK. MARK THEN ASK TO SPEAK TO ME AND ASK ME TO CALL HIM BACK WHEN HIS DAD LEFT.

AS SOON AS THE PHONE WAS HUNG WE WERE BACK ONCE AGAIN WITH THE RAVING MANIAC. AS WE HAD BEEN ALL OVER THE HOUSE MORE THAN ONCE AS I ATTEMPTED TO ESCAPE HIM AND WERE IN THE MASTER BEDROOM WHEN MARK HAD CALLED. WE WERE NOW IN THE LIVING ROOM NEAR THE FRONT DOOR AS HE PUT HIS HANDS AROUND MY NECK AND WAS IN THE PROCESS OF STRANGLING ME. I JUST WENT LIMP. MY THOUGHT WAS “DEATH WILL BRING PEACE”.  SUDDENLY PEA BRAIN, RODERICK GARRETT MUST HAVE REMEMBERED OUR SON’S PHONE CALL. ALL OF THE TESTIMONY IN THE WORLD WOULD NOT HAVE SAVED HIS SORRY HIDE FROM A MURDER CONVICTION. HE SUDDENLY RELEASED ME AND LEFT.

THAT WOULD BE THE FOURTH ATTEMPT TO KILL ME UNLESS I COUNTED HIS STEALING MY CAR. WHEN I GOT IT BACK, THE BRAKES WERE GONE AND I HAD A ACCIDENT ON THE FREEWAY.

I DO DIGRESS.

RECENTLY DUE TO THE HELP OF THE STATE ACCOUNTING DEPARTMENT STAFF FOR RETIRED STATE EMPLOYEE’S, RODERICK DISCOVERED MY LAST NAME, BOHANNON. I HAD CALLED ABOUT A SPOUSAL CHECK AND ACCIDENTLY SAID PAT BOHANNON. AFTERWARD, THEY ISSUED THOSE CHECKS IN THAT INSTEAD OF GARRETT AND REFUSED TO DO OTHERWISE, DEMANDING  OTHER FORMS OF I.D. TO CHANGE IT BACK. IN ORDER TO CHANGE BACK TO GARRETT???

HE CRIES AND WHINES ABOUT HOW MUCH HE LOVES AND NEEDS ME AND PEOPLE HELP HIM. THAT DOESN’T MAKE ANY SENSE EITHER. THE REASON FOR GETTING MARRIED IN VEGAS WAS ALL ABOUT HIM NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND ME.

WHAT HE DID NOT KNOW IS I DO NOT RENT A P.O. BOX IN THE CITY I LIVE IN. I DO MY BEST TO PROTECT MYSELF.

SO HE FOUND ME ON THE NET AND HAS HACKED INTO MY WEB SITE AND OTHER ENTITIES ON THE INTERNET, HE MESS’S WITH ME AND CAN DELETE TEXT WHILE I AM TYPING. I HAVE BEEN OFF THE INTERNET WHILE WE WERE SELLING OUR HOME AND MOVING SO I AM TYPING UN-INTERPRETED SO FAR TODAY. YAH

I CALLED ACCOUNTING TO CHANGE MY ADDRESS. THE WOMAN ACTUALLY TRIED TO GET ME TO GIVE HER OUR HOME ADDRESS! WHO DOES THAT!!! I TOLD HER THAT BECAUSE SHE OR OTHERS IN THAT ACCOUNTING APPARTEMENT HAD GIVEN him  (dufus to us) HE HAD HACKED INTO ALL OF MY ONLINE ACCOUNTS AND SIBER BULLIED ME.    SUDDENLY SHE WAS VERY PROFESSIONAL AND FINISHED BUSINESS AS WAS HER JOB TO DO.  (oh my goodness!!! she knows what we have done. I could lose my job) I COULD JUST HEAR WHAT SHE WAS THINKING. BUT WAIT  OH NO!! I AM TOO DUMB!!!   AT HIS MOMS FUNERAL HE AND HIS SIS WERE RIDICULING ME, SO I WAS TOLD, ABOUT HOW DUMB PAT IS.  SURE…………….

AND YOUR SO SMART

COLEEN IS AND HAS BEEN MARRIED AND LIVES IN MINNESOTA. SHE MAJORED IN PHYSIOLOGY AND HAS A MINOR IN HISTORY. WE BOTH LOVE HISTORY. THE BRILLANT (SHE SAID WITH SARCASM) HAS NEVER READ A BOOK HE DID NOT HAVE TO READ, BUT HE LISTENS WELL AND WOULD ALWAYS PASS ON WHATEVER I WOULD READ AND SHARE WITH HIM, AT THE TIME AS IF HE HAD GAINED SOME KNOWLEDGE ON HIS OWN. ?????SUCH A BRILLIANT MAN????

PATRICIA

NOBODY’S PROPERTY

I WONDER HOW MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE FEEL THE WAY I DO?

IAM NO LONGER A DAUGHTER FOR A DAD TO ABUSE. THE ABUSE I RECIEVED FROM CHARLES WAS HORRENDOUS. HE WAS FROM THE KING-PIN FAMILY IN HIS FARMING COMMUNITY.

I AM NO LONGER A WIFE TO A MAN WHO PAID $3.00 FOR A MARRIAGE LICENSE, THEN TURNED TO ME AND SAID,”I OWN YOU NOW. YOU BELONG TO ME. NO LONGER MARRIED TO THIS PERSON WHO STILL TRIES TO CONTROL ME, AS HE HAS TRIED TO DESTROY ME.

I AM MARRIED TO A GOOD MAN WHO I LOVE AND CHERISH THE LIFE WE HAVE TOGEATHER. SO ALL IS GOOD AND I AM BECOMMING MORE AND MORE THE PERSON I WAS CREATED TO BE.

PRAISE GOD.

PATRICIA.

 

 

Green door

HAVE YOU EVER HEARD THE SONG  “GREEN DOOR” ? BACK IN THE DAY IT WAS A POPULAR SONG, WITH A SNAZZY TUNE AND A QUESTION. THE QUESTION WAS AND STILL IS: WHAt’S BEHIND THE GREEN DOOR???

THIS MORNING AS I WAS AWAKENING I HAD MY ANSWER AS TO WHAT THAT GREEN DOOR MENT TO ME ALL OF MY LIFE. MY GREEN DOOR IS THE ENTRANCE INTO MY MIND. FINALLY I HAVE A SLIVER OF WHAT IS THERE.

I  HAVE STRUGGLED TO CONQUER AND GAIN PEACE WITH MY DEAMONS AS MANY, IF NOT MOST PEOPLE ALSO DO. NOT THAT I AM DEAMON POSSESSED, I AM NOT. AS I SUFFERED EXTREEM ABUSE, MOSTLY FROM THE PATERNAL PARENT. THERE WAS ALSO THE JEALOUSLY OF MY MATERNAL PARENT.

BEING TWO YEARS OLD THE FIRST TIME I WAS WITH HIM AS HE SCOUTED AND FOUND A YOUNG MAN, HITCH HIKING, WILLING AND EAGER TO MOLIST A CHILD. AS CHARLES DID WHAT HE LIVED FOR. I WAS PLACED IN THE MOST SHOCKING POSTION POSSIBLE, TO BE DRENCHED WITH THE BLOOD OF HIS VICTUM.

FORTUNATELY THAT IS THE WHOLE MEMORY THAT I HAVE FROM THAT EXPERIENCE. THE PSYCHOLOGIST WHO WORKED WITH ME WENT NO FURTHER WITH THOSE MEMORIES, THAT CONNECTED ME, TO REACH THE HEALING OF MY MIND, THAN WAS NECESARY.  HE IS A PERSON OF HEBREW DESCENT, DR. GEORGE SINGER. I HAD RESEARCHED AND FOUND HE WAS THE BEST DOCTOR IN BAKERSFIELD IN HIS FIELD.  WELLLL   I GLORIFY MYSELF, I ONLY ASK AND WAS ANSWERED BY A PROFESSIONAL WHO HAPENED TO BE IN A POSITION TO KNOW AND ADVISE ANYONE SUCH AS MYSELF.

WELL THE OTHER STUFF HAD BEGAN AS A TODDLER.  HOW FRANCES COULD HAVE BEEN JEALOUS OF ME, I DO NOT UNDERSTAND. I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT THERE WAS NOT MUCH SHE COULD HAVE DONE, I FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE SHE DID NOT DEAL WITH THE MAN, WHILE IN HIS SLEEP PERHAPS. I MUST NOT JUDGE HER, AS THAT IS A VERY EASY SIN TO COMMITT. I DO MYSELF  COME UP LACKING, I REALIZE THAT. SO VERY MUCH.

MY “RECOVERY” HAS BEEN LONG AND MANY TIMES DIFFICULT. OUR CREATOR HAS BEEN WITH ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY AND AT TIMES I HAVE BEEN ANGRY AT, OR IS IT ‘WITH’ HIM? BUT ALWAYS SUSTAINED BY HIM.

I MUST CLOSE FOR NOW. WE ARE PACKING AND WILL SOON HAVE CLOSED ESCROW ON OUR HOME. WE WILL BE MOVING OUT OF STATE AND ENJOYING ‘OUR’ RETIREMENT.

UNTIL NEXT TIME,

PATRICIA

 

Some kina cousin

FRANCES TOULD ME A MES. TREMAN  (DISTANT COUSIN)  ASK IF I COULD ACCOMPANY HER ON A TRIP TO SEE HER RELATIVE’S IN COLORADO. IT WAS REALLY NICE TO BE TREATED AS IF I WERE A PERSON. HER KIDS AND I IN A COLARDO RIVER OR STREAM.

I STAYED WITH SHIRLEY AND DELAINE BENNETT. FUN… I WENT TO SCHOOL WITH DELAINE, SHE HAD A BEST FRIEND WHO WAS A REAL FUN CHARACTER, WHO COULD GET AWAY WITH A COOKY SENCE OF HUMOR, IN THE CLASS ROOM WITH A STERN TEACHER. I THINK SHE COULD  APPRECIATED A BRIGHT STUDENT WHO JUST WENT WITH WHAT SHE  ?FELT?  OR WHATEVER.

THEN WE ALL WENT TO A FRIDAY NIGHT DANCE. I’M NOT SURE I DANCED, MAYBE. SHIRLEY WAS WITH HER NEWLY WED HUSBAND, WHO COMPLAINED THAT HE COULD GET HER TO STAY HOME, FOR “A LITTLE QUIET” TIME.

PATRICIA

Nurse’s training in the 1930’s

FRANCES IN NURSES TRAINING AT GOOD SAMATRIAN HOSPITAL I THINK IT WAS IN OKLAHOMA. WITH A FRIEND. SHES SOMEONE I NEVER THINK AS HAVING FRIENDS. SHOULDERS MAYBE WHO FOLLOW ORDERS.

CHARLES CAME TO GET HERE AND THEY DID GET MARRIED. NURSES TRAINING CAME BEFORE SHE COULD BECOME A AIRPLANE STEWARD’S, WHICH WAS HER PLAN.

PATRICIA

1950’S

FRANCES ALLOWED ME TO GO TO THE LAKE WITH DARREL’S FAMILY. IT WAS FUN UNTIL THE FIRST NIGHT. I SLEPT ON A MATTRESS IN THE BACK OF A PICKUP BED WITH DARRELS SISTER-IN-LAW. SHE ASK ME WHEN DARREL AND I WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED? I JUST LAID THERE AND SILENTLY FREAKED.

I WANTED TO RUN AWAY. I FELT TRAPED, SILLY ENOUGH BUT….. I DID.  I WOULD NOT EVEN SPEAK TO HIM THE NEXT DAY OR TWO, HOWEVER LONG WE WERE THERE. IT DID MAKE HIS SISTER, ALSO IN HIGH SCHOOL, HAPPY WITH ME.   FUNNY

LATER FRANCES TOLD ME SOMETHING ABOUT DARRELS FAMILY THOUGHT I TREATED HIM BADLY. ALTHOUGH NOT A CATHOLIC, I ALWAYS FELT GUILTY ABOUT ANY OR,  & EVERYTHING, FELT NO GUILT AT ALL. JUST GLAD NOONE WAS TALKING MARRIAGE TO ME.

PATRICIA

 

PLIEN AIR PAINTING

A LIFE TIME AGO IN MEW MEXICO, IN THE EARLY 1980’S I PAINTED A SHORT DISTANCE UP THE VALLEY, HEADING TOWARD COLORADO. I HAD SET UP TO PAINT THE ASPEN TREES ALONG SIDE THE WASH, WHICH WAS PROBALY A CREEK IN TIMES PAST. NOW ONLY AFTER A GOOD RAIN. MAYBE A”GULLY WASHER” SUCH AS WE HAD ON THE FARM, I GREW UP ON.

I THINK THAT I DID GET RID OF THIS PAINTING AFTER FINISHING IT. WHEN I WAS NOT HAPPY WITH A PAINTING I WOULD JUST PAINTING SOMETHING OVER IT.

LATER WHEN COLEEN WAS A TEENAGER SHE WOULD COME HOME FROM SCHOOL AND TAKE PAINTINGS I HAD DISCARDED OUT OF THE TRASH AND KEEP THEM.

PATRICIA

 

GIFT’S FROM GOD

HERE IS MY LITTLE BIT OF MISCHIEVOUSNESSA. SHE WAS SUCH A DELIGHT.

SHE DID ASK ME HOW BABIES “GET OUT”. NOW MY EXPERIENCE WITH HER BROTHER HAD GONE DIFFERENTLY. I HAD A BOOK AND EACH TIME THE SUBJECT OF HOW BABIES ARE MADE.  MARK FOLLOWED THE BOOK,WITH THE ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS 1,2,3 AND ECT. ALL IN THE ORDER THEY WERE WRITTEN IN THE BOOK. SO EASY WITH HIM. AFTER I WOULD READ OUT OF THE BOOK, OFF HE WENT TO CONTINUE HIS PLAYING..

COLEEN’S FIRST QUESTION WAS AT THE END OF THE BOOK, SHE THOUGHT SHE KNEW ALL THE OTHER STUFF. SHE REFUSED TO LOOK AT THE SWEET LITTLE BOOK, BUT DID EXPECT A ANSWER TO HER QUESTION. I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVED WHEN A CHILD ASKS A QUESTION IT SHOULD BE ANSWERED, SO I DID ANSWER IT.

THAT LITTLE GIRL LAUGHED LIKE YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE. I GUESS SHE MUST HAVE THOUGHT, “GOOD ONE MOM”. AFTER SHE FINALLY STOPPED LAUGHING, SHE WENT ON WITH HER BUSINESS OF PLAYING.

PATRICIA